HI!
Do I come across as a happier person now? People have been coming up to me and telling me that I look a lot happier now. A lot. Happier. And I’ll just reply ‘Do I look SUPER HAPPY to you?!‘ Cos deep down I don’t think I am that happy that it’ll be visible!
So I scrolled back through my old pamelic.livejournal entries and wow. I can’t believe how sad I sounded. Even my older entries in this wordpress. I sounded so depressed. Yeah scrape the previous entry, I was frustrated. Well, alright, I think I am happier. I had so much fun dancing with my SBM club people today, stuffing myself with Macs (again) and talking to beibei who gave me such a brilliant idea I can shout ‘Eureka!‘ right now! Hahah alright, I managed to postpone my report deadline to tomorrow and I am only half-done!
Will go now! I’m happy I can sleep soundly at night, eat right (although growing fat is gross), think a lot lesser, worry a lot lesser, being frantic about you and I’m really happy how I let myself be consumed with school activities, family, friends and myself. Simple joys that I restricted myself from last time just so I can give all my time to you. Stupidity is the word because in the end, look at what happened?
I see how my usual clique in school leave school to go out with their partners or to wait for someone and well I have no one. But somehow it doesn’t sting me as bad as before. I feel so comforted sitting in the library doing my work alone. People have been asking me when will I get attached? Or if I am happy single and yessss! I am. 
I really am. I miss this liberated feeling. In all honesty, I don’t feel the least bit lonely anymore. Is that a good thing? Relying on yourself is really the only way to go. No vulnerability.
Am I over you? Maybe. I feel sore sometimes when I think about everything and how I got replaced so easily. But on the whole, I feel, happy. *Throws confetti* Til’ the end was such a lie, but the Tiffany & Co. isn’t. I don’t believe in love anymore, because I believe material things will make me just as happy minus all that hurt. It’s all a matter of Perspective. Hehe. OK. Rambling! Will go now. <3 world.
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
what’s ‘Eureka’ ? hahaha ! i can stay after school with you, i can give up my beauty sleep too hahah <3<3
It’s a thing you say when you’ve thought of an idea! And omg Yi-Ting it’s raining now!! How to swim!
And yay, letz go out toooo!!! Bring my post-its!